Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I decided to do it!

So my sister has one of these things and thought it would be a good idea for me to create one so she could watch my baby grow up since we are so far apart. I decided not only can she watch Lily grow but I can let out some stress that I deal with in a healthy way. lol

Well, I recently got a little baby by the name of Lily from my sister and I couldn't be a prouder (is that a word??) mama! She has shown me the importance of taking care of someone other then myself and has shown me a lot more responsibilities. Taking care of Lily is equivalent to taking care of a baby, between waking up all throughout the night because she is crying and wants her mama, to wearing her out throughout the day, hoping she will sleep through the night (which doesn't happen) She is the best puppy in the world and is well worth the LONG nights and tired days! I can't wait to see her grow up and see what kind of a dog she turns into, she has so much character right now so I am sure she is going to be such a fun loving companion. Not only has she shown me what it is like to have responsibilities but she has brought both my sister and I a lot closer, whenever I have any question or need any advice Meg is the first person I turn to, even though we argued A LOT when we were younger and bumped heads I wouldn't want any other person to turn to and call my sister!

Enough about Lily whats going on in my life? Well, if you know me, you should know that I just got out of a relationship with someone who I thought was everything and more, but in the end I got proved differently and got my heart broken again. I have learned that I need to stop reaching out to so many people because when I do that I take the focus off myself and I am the one that hurts in the end. We had broken up about 2 weeks ago and in those 2 weeks I have been doing a lot of things for myself and trying to find what makes me really happy, I have learned that if you are not happy with yourself then you can never be happy with another person so I have a long journey ahead of me but I will eventually get there and be at my happiest! The gym has become my sanctuary and I have never felt better about myself, it is so funny going from a person who use to have to drag herself to the gym, if I even went, to someone who gets so angry with herself if she misses a day, but I LOVE IT! Today I am trying out a trainer for the first time, his name is Justin so hopefully he will kick my butt and show me all new workouts and things I can do at the gym, I am sooo excited!

Well, I would love to keep typing and just let all of my feelings out but I need to play with baby Lily before I go to the gym. I am going to try my hardest to keep up with this and keep you all updated on what is going on with me and how big baby Lily is growing!

Have a wonderful day all!